Cry

this song hit me on so many LEVELS!!! ENJOY!

Breaking up is Hard to do Alone

I almost died today
When I woke up alone
in our empty bed
And realized that it was truly over.
I lay on my back
with tears dripping into my ears
while in utter despair
I willed my broken heart to stop beating.
I almost died again
When I glanced at the open closet,
Remembering
how you so thoroughly
removed all traces of your presence
Ensuring you had no reason to return.
Like a child I held my breath
Hoping to turn blue and fade away.
But my heart never stopped
And I finally had to breathe.
So I rolled to the middle of the bed,
Stretched out like never before,
Looked again at my half empty closet,
And decided to live. After Years of Being with You!

It’s just hard when you are still in love alone
The memories won’t leave my head
The good and bad times
The time spent with families, graduations,
Friday night dinner dates, shopping sprees,
Movie night, game night, all the cuddling,
Long talks in the night, arguments and making up, the sex WOW!
The list can go on….
But at the end of the day……..
Breaking up is hard to do Alone……….

After talking to Mook

So I tried this dating thing again after being with my ex for many years, OK I think I need to put a want ad out to list the things I need and don’t want. LOL The person I was dealing with was cool to start out but found out that the maturity level was not there. Yes, cute as all get out but that’s not enough to hold me over. I love to read, write, visit art shows, travel, and chill with friends who stimulate my mind and this is just a few things I enjoy doing. The person I was talking to didn’t enjoy one of my many interest. I knew in the back of my mind that this wouldn’t last but I stayed in it but now I’m back at the starting line. I may just need to relax and just chill. I’m enjoying life and loving me so I guess it doesn’t get any better than that. I still want to put out a want ad LOL ok just joking… I think???? Lol…..But until then I will just sit back and let the help and advice my cousin Mook hit me in the head with workout……

God's Cover Letter

To Whom It May Concern:

I heard you were considering a new manager in your life. I would like to apply for the job. I believe I am the most qualified candidate. I am the only one that has even done this job successfully.

I was the first manager of human beings. In fact I made them, so naturally I know how humanity works, and what is best to get people back into proper working condition. It will be like having the manufacturer as your personal mechanic.

If this is your first time considering me, I would just like to point out that my salary has already been paid by the blood of my son, Jesus on the cross of Calvary. What I need from you is the acknowledgment that the price is sufficient to pay for all of your sin and your independence from Me. I need you to believe this in your heart and to tell somebody else about your decision with your mouth.

The next thing I ask is the right to change and fix your life so you can learn how to stay close to Me. I will make some major changes and revisions. They are not for you to worry about. I need your permission to execute these changes, My way and in My time. I will change your desires and give you the strength to make the changes.

Please keep your hands out of the way. Don't try to help me and Don't resist me. I really do need your full commitment and cooperation. If you give me those, the process can go smoothly, without delays.

Yours Sincerely,
GOD

P.S. I created the heavens and the earth. I AM. BELOW IS MY RESUME...




GOD
Everywhere
All over, Every Place 00000
Phone: (123) 456-PRAY



EXPERIENCE
From the beginning of time. Before the beginning of time. From everlasting to everlasting. I made time.

ABILITY
All Powerful

PRIOR EMPLOYMENT
*Created the universe, put the galaxies in place, formed man.
*Established heaven and earth by My spoken Word and am currently holding up the world by My power.

EDUCATION AND TRAINING
*I AM and I have all knowledge.

CHARACTER REFERENCE
Love, light, and life (1John 4:16, 1John 1:5, John 14:6).
A representative, but by no means conclusive list of other character traits follows:


Wisdom - James 1:5
Comfort - 2 Corinthians 1:3
Truth - John 8:32
Healer - 1 Peter 2:24
Strength - Phil. 4:13
Forgiveness - 1John 1:9
Provider - Phil. 4:19
Mercy - Ephesians 2:24
Good - Matt. 19:17
Peace - Romans 14:17
AVAILABILITY


Willing and ready to take over your life.
Able to put your life together again.
Will bring all of who I AM into your life.
Can start now.
Will transform your life if you let Me.
SALARY REQUIREMENT


Work in your life has already been paid for through the blood of My Son, Jesus.
Your only responsibility is to commit initially and on a daily basis.
To trust and obey what Jesus has done and wants to do in your life.
Other references available upon request

My Time! Im in Love Again

It was during one quiet walk in my mind
I remembered the peaceful rhythm
The intimacy of that talk
It was after a pleasant cup of tea
I took my own hand, fingers interlaced
And the warmth of my touch invigorated me
It was the morning I woke in the comfort of my arms
The world outside had curiously disappeared
It was the moment I suddenly knew
When my heart stopped and finally realized,
I was, falling in love with me all over again.

Part 2

I fell in love with me
when I had a chance
in my soberness, in my faith, in my heart,
and I wondered if this love would go.
I fell in love with me again this day
and I reminded myself
I will not go, and I thanked myself
for my willingness to love
one such as me.

Finding Peace Within

A Full Embrace Excluding Nothing
Finding Peace Within
Most people agree that a more peaceful world would be an ideal situation for all living creatures. However, we often seem stumped as to how to bring this ideal situation into being. If we are to have true peace in this world, each one of us must find it in ourselves first. If we don’t like ourselves, for example, we probably won’t like those around us. If we are in a constant state of inner conflict, then we will probably manifest conflict in the world. If we have fighting within our families, there can be no peace in the world. We must shine the light of inquiry on our internal struggles; because this is the only place we can really create change.

When we initiate the process of looking inside ourselves for the meaning of peace, we will begin to understand why it has always been so difficult to come by. This in itself will enable us to be compassionate toward the many people in the world who find themselves caught up in conflicts both personal and universal. We may have an experience of peace that we can call up in ourselves to remind us of what we want to create, but if we are human we will also feel the pull in the opposite direction the desire to defend ourselves, to keep what we feel belongs to us, to protect our loved ones and our cherished ideals, and the anger we feel when threatened. This awareness is important because we cannot truly know peace until we understand the many tendencies and passions that threaten our ability to find it. Peace necessarily includes, even as it transcends, all of our primal energy, much of which has been expressed in ways that contradict peace.

Being at peace with ourselves is not about denying or rejecting any part of ourselves. On the contrary, in order to be at peace we must be willing and able to hold ourselves, in all our complexity, in a full embrace that excludes nothing. This is perhaps the most difficult part for many of us, because we want so much to disown the negative aspects of our humanity. Ironically, though, true peace begins with a willingness to take responsibility for our humanity so that we might ultimately transform it in the light of our love.

Mama’s Advice

Short Post:

I had to talk to my mom about a few issues I had been dealing with the way “friends” treat you.

The Advice that she gave me was…. “When a person shows you who they are don’t expect anything different until they show you different.”

This has made me look deep inside my own self to reflect on how I treat people, meaning if I was putting positive energy out and having it come back to me. I would always love to be treated the same way I treat others, because I give my all and don’t think it’s asking too much to have that in return… Maybe it’s just me! IDK! What do you think?