Breaking up is Hard to do Alone

I almost died today
When I woke up alone
in our empty bed
And realized that it was truly over.
I lay on my back
with tears dripping into my ears
while in utter despair
I willed my broken heart to stop beating.
I almost died again
When I glanced at the open closet,
Remembering
how you so thoroughly
removed all traces of your presence
Ensuring you had no reason to return.
Like a child I held my breath
Hoping to turn blue and fade away.
But my heart never stopped
And I finally had to breathe.
So I rolled to the middle of the bed,
Stretched out like never before,
Looked again at my half empty closet,
And decided to live. After Years of Being with You!

It’s just hard when you are still in love alone
The memories won’t leave my head
The good and bad times
The time spent with families, graduations,
Friday night dinner dates, shopping sprees,
Movie night, game night, all the cuddling,
Long talks in the night, arguments and making up, the sex WOW!
The list can go on….
But at the end of the day……..
Breaking up is hard to do Alone……….

After talking to Mook

So I tried this dating thing again after being with my ex for many years, OK I think I need to put a want ad out to list the things I need and don’t want. LOL The person I was dealing with was cool to start out but found out that the maturity level was not there. Yes, cute as all get out but that’s not enough to hold me over. I love to read, write, visit art shows, travel, and chill with friends who stimulate my mind and this is just a few things I enjoy doing. The person I was talking to didn’t enjoy one of my many interest. I knew in the back of my mind that this wouldn’t last but I stayed in it but now I’m back at the starting line. I may just need to relax and just chill. I’m enjoying life and loving me so I guess it doesn’t get any better than that. I still want to put out a want ad LOL ok just joking… I think???? Lol…..But until then I will just sit back and let the help and advice my cousin Mook hit me in the head with workout……